Just a few minutes while the little one is asleep and the older one is playing tea party. I am feeling a bit of a buzz with only one week to go before going back to work. I am excited and freaked out all in the same breath. I think that now that we have decided to put both girls in the same childcare centre, I feel better about leaving them. It will still undoubtably be difficult (after all, when is leaving your kids in the care of someone else ever easy?) but I take comfort in know that Julia is excited to be there and that the caregivers are consistent (it is the same caregivers that we had when Julia was first in daycare)
As for wor, well, I am a bit nervous at teh prospect of being around scads of children and how that will have an impact on my PPD issues. Whether or not I will be comfortable being in a child care setting again (at least until school starts) and then seeing how that will translate into the classroom that will begin in September. I worry about how our household will have to shift and change our chore structure to accomodate the fact that I am not home all day to cook and clean up after the kids. That said, we are not going to be home to make as big a mess either, so perhaps it is worrying for naught.
I have loads to do before the birthday party we are having tomorrow (start no rain mantra right now, please) just in case we have to move the party here due to inclement weather.
At this moment, though, as I sit here typing (this keyboard like an old patient friend who has wondered how come it has taken me so long to come back to it to visit like this) I am feeling calm and, dare I say it, happy.
1:10 p.m. - 2005-06-24